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HERE’S HOW THE designation process works in the Federal prison system–
the day your name comes up you are designated by your security level,
lowest to highest, and given a bed. I had a security level of “zero” – so I
could have been designated to a camp anywhere within 500 miles of our
apartment in Greenwich. But on the day I was designated there were no
beds in camps in this area – so I was designated to a Low Security Prison.
On the inside there was one former lawyer–that would be me–two former
doctors, five former stockbrokers, and 1500 drug dealers.
On Easter Sunday 2006, I reported to Allenwood Low Security Corrections Institution in White Deer, Pennsylvania. A guard came out and
I showed him my court orders–he did not seem happy about my coming in on Easter Sunday. As we went through the metal door he spun
me around, held my hands behind my back and slapped handcuffs on
them. I had been anticipating this moment for over a year and not once
did I consider that I would have to be handcuffed. At that moment I
had my first inkling of how little I knew about surviving in prison.
I was escorted to a bulletproof glass teller’s cage behind which was a
guard who asked me for my “register number.” I had no idea what that
was–I’d never heard that term before. He asked me for it again and when
I didn’t know he came out and taped a number on my clothes. That was
my Federal Bureau of Prisons register number, and it became my identity.
Next, I was brought to a section called R & D–Receiving & Discharge–
and it felt very much like its title–a place for FedEx packages. I was processed and then told to strip naked. They took all my clothes and put them
in a box to ship back home. While I was standing naked in this cold room,
on a cold cement floor, a man entered who I would later learn was the
Head Lieutenant. He basically ran the day-to-day operations of the prison.
He looked me up and down, and then asked me if I was the lawyer. I told
him no, but that I used to be one. He seemed pleased with that answer.
He then told me that there were 1500 men on his compound, and I was to
be the only lawyer. There were some jailhouse lawyers working out of the
library. He told me that I’d have no problems on his compound if I stayed
out of other people’s legal business and I took no money or favors from
another inmate. He told me that I was a short-stayer and he suggested I
just do my time and go home without a problem. He asked me what I
thought of that? I was standing there naked. I told him that making a few
dollars from other inmates was the last thing on my mind.
I was given an orange jumpsuit to put on, re-cuffed and marched
across the compound to the SHU (Secure Housing Unit). It was a time-
honored tradition at Allenwood to hoot and holler at new inductees as
they were being led through the compound to the SHU on their first
day. I certainly didn’t understand why people were hollering at me.
The guards never told me where I was going or why. When I got to
the SHU, it looked like something out of the worst prison movie I had
ever seen–dark and dimly lit, with rows of metal doors with tiny holes
in them. I was put in a rubber lined holding cell, re-stripped and re-
searched. I guess they were satisfied that I hadn’t picked up any weapons
or contraband in the 300-foot walk from R & D.
I was never told where I was or why I was there. I didn’t know if this
was what the entire prison was like, if it was a holding area, or how long
I would be there. Inside the cell was a narrow bunk bed–barely wide
enough for a grown man’s shoulders–a combination toilet and sink, a
desk and a chair. And there I met my first “cellie”–a black man, around
50 years old, with dreadlocks down to his waist. When I came in, he
didn’t acknowledge my presence at all. He just pointed to the upper
bunk. I understood–that was mine.
His first words came about ten minutes later when he told me to
move fast. The sound of a cart moving down the hall meant we had no
time to lose. The slot on the metal cell door opened, and very quickly,
four covered trays of food slid in through the slot. I understood what
he meant by moving fast. If we didn’t catch the trays they would have
dropped to the floor and the food would have spilled all over. He caught
each tray and quickly handed them to me. I put them on the desk. We
sat on the floor, dividing the dinner between us. I had already decided
that I was going to lose the forty pounds I had put on in the months I
was waiting to go to prison. I looked in the trays, and saw there was a
little meat of some sort, and lots of bread, potatoes and rice. Starches
were apparently the mainstay of the diet–I asked him if he wanted my
potatoes and rice. We became friends in no time. His name was Raoul.
Almost everybody who came to Allenwood was first brought to the
SHU, Raoul explained. There was no way to know how long I’d be
in the SHU, but Raoul suspected that I wouldn’t have to wait long:
first timer, middle age, and most importantly, white. I later learned
that some inmates are kept in the SHU “waiting for a bed” thirty days
or longer. I only had to wait 16 hours before I was released onto the
compound. I was shoved out the door of the SHU without any other
instructions than to report directly to the laundry. It was about nine
o’clock in the morning, bright daylight, and my eyes were trying to
readjust after having been in a dungeon for the past day or so.
I got to the laundry and knocked on the big metal industrial door–
my big rap was much louder than I intended. The door opened a sliver
and a head popped out to tell me that I would have to wait for “the
move” before I could gain entry. I had no idea what that meant, but
after the door closed there was no way that I was going to knock on
that door again. In about fifteen minutes, a siren went off and people
started scurrying around all over the place. This, I understood, was “the
move.” The door popped open, I stepped inside and I was first in line.
I presented the clerk with the papers I had been given in the SHU–
he sized me up for a uniform, t-shirts, shoes, a laundry bag, duffel,
sheets, blanket, towels, a soap kit, and just about everything I would
need to make my stay at Allenwood complete. Union A, Cube 25,
Upper Bunk would be home for the next thirteen and a half months.
I WAS RELEASED from prison in 2007 and had to do a stint in a halfway
house, home detention and then three years of Federal probation. I also
had court ordered drug and alcohol counseling. It was my counselor–a
former Catholic Priest turned drug counselor–who recommended to
me that I rebuild my life through volunteerism. I called my old rehab,
Silver Hill Hospital, and asked them if I could come interview for a
volunteer position–they told me to come over that day. I fully disclosed
everything that had happened in the past few years. I was nervous. I
figured that if my own rehab wouldn’t take me for a volunteer job, who
in the world would ever let me work for them?
Two hours later my phone rang and I was a recovery volunteer for Silver
Hill Hospital. This led me to becoming a volunteer house manager at
Liberation House in Stamford–a residential rehab where guys are sent in-
stead of being sentenced to prison. Next was Family ReEntry, a nonprofit
serving the ex-offender communities in Bridgeport and New Haven, the
first organization that asked me to serve on its Board of Directors. The
first project I worked on at Family ReEntry was with my girlfriend, Lynn
Springer–who is now my wife; we converted a blighted inner-city block in
Bridgeport into the largest privately owned public use park and garden in